every time i wake up, first thing feels empty and lonely is the sense of having already lost u. although i'm still working on daily activities such as work and meet friends, but i wasn't able to concentrate 100%. behind the mind i always imagined u. all day i like someone who lives in both worlds; the real world in which i no longer have u and the world of memory when i was with u. hobbies n favorite things i feel not attractive anymore to me.
when i went n visited both of us or see objects that are related to u, my feelings directly uncertain. even though my friends tried to cheer me up n give u positive feedback, but i had in my minds "no one who understands what i'm feeling"
the night when i was home alone that i do is think of the condition broken my heart. i experienced the emotions swirling cycle; longing, sadness, loneliness and regret and disappointed, angry, feel it is unfair and spinning back to miss again and so on.
i slept with feeling hollow and wake up the next day only go to back again into a cycle of emotions that i had started the day yesterday.
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